The language course is o6icially over. Three weeks of morning classes over, but it was incredibly fun, and great for jogging my memory. I got my fancy certificate that says that I passed the class and that level of German now.
However, the reality of being alone really hit this past week because I finally had a minute to stop and relax. These prior weeks, I had my mom with me, then I immediately went into the language course, so my brain didn’t really process the reality. This past week, after the language course ended, when I have nothing else going on led to me not really leaving my room much throughout the week because I was hit with the reality check that I was alone and I had nothing to keep my mind busy. All in all, last week was a rough week.
I think what this has proved to me though, in a way, is that I think I can do this. I know this is only the first bout of homesickness and sadness that I will have, but if I can find ways to manage it, and not let it take over, then I am capable of actually being so far from everyone and everything I know.
However, this week started the beginning of orientation for international students before the semester starts, so that gave me something to look forward to. Specifically a reason to force myself to socialize. I know that I should be looking for other things to do myself, but I’m taking this opportunity to meet new people, ask questions, and slowly feel better mentally before starting classes rather than force myself into something I am not comfortable with.
